Well not that anyone reads my shit, but I am still going to to write in my journal because it makes me feel like I am acutally in touch with this community. I know that only maybe a few people will see this. For those people, listen what I have to say.
So anyway I have been looking around my gallery at my older stuff from when I started to shoot. All i can say is that I have for sure progressed. For example, I searoiusly saw a picture of a plate in my gallery, a fucking plate! All I could say to myself was just "Wow what was I thinking. What did I see in this plate". Also I look at my compostional skills and notice a for sure difference. I am now starting to take more photographs that have come from my own style.
Basically waht I am trying to say is that if you think you are a bad artist, just take a second to look at your older stuff (if you still have them). You will realize how much you really sucked compared to now. It really made me feel alot better about my art. For those few people that have read this I thank you very much for taking your time to read my thoughts.